Wowz. Its Been A Long Time.

Wow I have not blogged in a long time huh. I wonder does anyone still visit or not. Nevermind I shall do a quick update for you guys who still come see.

School is ending soon, about one week left then exams and term 2 is finally over. This term passed by really really fast and while I didn’t really enjoy the term I did learn alot of things about the people around me and so on. It was also a difficult term for me because for quite awhile I had no idea what my motivation for the term was, I was just listing from day to day, doing the work and not learning anything. I attended school, i did my work but I did not have that drive to study or score.

Oh well I found it so that one is solved.

I learn – I..

Screw it.

 

I can’t type anything.

 

I’m just gonna post it.

 

How Am I Suppose To Breathe With No Air?

So it would seem that I have no updated in a long time, I am sorry because I have been both too busy and also somewhat lazy. There isn’t much to update also anyway. Nevertherless almost one month has passed so I will attempt to write a substantial update for those who read.

I don’t think I written anything about this term so I shall.

So this term I am taking (again) 4 units.

1. English 4 (Ecology and Environmentalism)

2. Computer 4 (Access and Publisher)

3. Media 4 (Internet)

4. Geography 4 (Atmosphere)

One would notice that my units this term are all numbered 4.

Okay so far the english unit is proving to be a major hassle, a subject that gave me so much headache because of the fact that there is so much work to do. Basically we have to read this book titled “A Short History of Progress” and listen to a series of lectures by this person named Ronald Wright on the same title. It sounds harmless enough but for some reason I can’t seem to comprehend whatever that man is saying so its quite difficult, then there are those pre-lecture tasks and tutorial preparations. Tutorials are interesting, this term I take part in the first proper tutorials I have but they are all almost disastrous. I shall not go into details here. Computer 4 so far seems alright, we are wrapping up the publisher part of the class so we are gonna start working on Access, the best question I heard so far is that “Does anyone still use Access anymore?!”, Media 4 feels abit harder to me since it deals with abit of the technical aspects of the internet and having to remember what DNS, HTTP etc is not fun. Finally we have Geography 4. This is quite the bitch. Its the first sciency class that I have taken over here and so far I am not really liking it, the teacher doesn’t really teach and most of the time we end up doing our own work. If it was just any other geography I wouldn’t be bothered but Geography 4 deals with the Atmosphere and that is one hard subject. It sucks having to figure out the definitions of Solstices, Equinoxes and so on. I can spend two hours in his class and go “Wait…Did I learn anything at all??!” This term seems much more challenging than the previous term, the workload seems to have increased dramatically (especially for English 4, its almost everyday that I have some kind of English work to do). Also the subjects taught this time seems to be far more difficult and require extra effort to concentrate and understand. I’m worried that I wouldn’t do well in the exams since I still don’t get what that Ronald Wright is saying half the time. I suppose I will just have to re-read the book over and over till I just understand what is going on and understand what the hell this man is saying!!!

Aside from school, things seems to be fine. I think I’m more used to the idea of studying overseas so I don’t feel too depressed nowadays, I am still quite short tempered and lately quite sleepy even though I sleep enough. Its quite nice that time is passing by really fast but at the same time I’m going “Noooooooo!!! Exams are coming!!!” In a rare act of efficiency, the school has posted the exam schedule on the wall, it seems my exams end on the 6th of December which means that I got about 5 days to muck around before I go back to Singapore, I mean this is good since I need the time to pack up my room and put the stuff at my mother’s friend house. Oh talking about stuff and room. I rearranged my room, I put the layout back to the original layout with the table facing the wall instead of the door like an office. To make things interesting, I bought a new screen a 23″ Samsung P2350 and hooked up my mac to the monitor for some HD goodness. Oh and I got myself a nice apple keyboard as well since using my laptop keyboard might be abit difficult as its to the side. I like how the room is layed out now, there is more space now and I get to watch movies while sitting on my bed since the screen is of an adequate size to watch!

Okay I don’t know what else to write lah.

I hope this updates you all, happy Nic?

I Am Going To Live Forever.

I haven’t had the chance to update lately because of the fact that I have been using my Windows side of the computer to play computer games, yes I spent the majority of my 2 week holiday back in Singapore enjoying the exceptionally fast internet here and all the computer games that I have missed out (Well not all). Coming back to Singapore reminds me of one key fact that I have completely forgotten while in Perth. That this nation is too hot for its own good, I’m okay with hot but this just had to be hot and HUMID at the same time. Sigh. I am reminded of all the things that I hate about the place, from it being too crowded to the fact that the attitudes of the people here have to change. Infact halfway through, i actually want to go back to Perth. Its seriously too hot and crowded in this nation. Its a bitch to come back from the city especially from 6-9pm because everyone seems to be going home at that time and everything is crowded, from MRT stations to Taxi stands. Arrgh.

Coming back was pleasant, it was nice to meet everyone again, while it was just three months it felt like quite a long time has passed. Of course three months isn’t long enough for people to change but I can tell there are somethings that are different now. Two weeks is a short break but it was worth it to have a change of pace (I think you could say it was an acceleration because Perth is such a slow and sleepy town). Going for church and attending Saturday Service was pleasant, it was as if I didn’t leave at all which is always good. Then came church anniversary, that reminded me of other things actually. Oh well its both a pleasant and unpleasant thing. The unpleasant thing is that it was really just too hot and really quite unbearable, dear God how did I survive 22 years of this??? It was really fun to meet up with the people that mattered alot to me, having supper with the people I’m closest to, watching a utterly terrible movie (seriously Gamer? wtf?) with the Brits, having dinner with them to discuss important issues like the “shopping spree” of Vietnam to the status of I-2 and talking with S till 7am as he stays over. (wow this feels so grammatically wrong but its 5.33am so fuck this shit). Oh yes forfeiting the FAME movie night with the church to have dinner with my two close army friends was quite worth it (really it is.), its not a friday night unless you are drinking margaritas during dinner and talking at the Void deck of some HDB making remarks of the education systems of Australia and Singapore (laughter and witty remarks abound).

Despite my deep dislike for the nation, I think coming back was good for me because I needed a break from Perth and all the stress that came along in school, you would think that there isn’t much stress and infact most of the stress was self generated but I believe that you need some stress to motivate you to do well, of course too much of it and you will suffer panic attacks and cry in your room when you try to study for an exam and panic because nothing is entering your brain! But then in the end most of the panic was unfounded because I got back my results today and I was very pleased with my own performance, for once I have passed everything in the term as compared to the many times that I usually only pass one or two subjects. UWA Law is slightly more achievable now because of this excellent Term 1 report. The reason I did so well this time is probably due to the fact that I only study all arts subjects and not a single science or maths subject. Anyway that will change next term as I embark on my first pseudo science subject of Geography. (Well some would argue that Geography is a science!).

This is random but I was lying on my bed trying to sleep when this crossed my mind, when I try to sleep my mind would sometimes wander away and think about things that I went through and things that I encountered in my life. Tonight my mind reminded me of something that a very close friend of mine mention to me once over the phone when I called him. “You seem more human now that I heard you crying.” So I wonder, do I seem that detached? I know that I’m quite unfazed when people tell me things that would normally shock people but really? I called him cause something had happened which caused me to cry and that was his remark to me after we talked for awhile. Not many people have seen me shed any tears before I think, so far I think only 4 people other than my mother and father have seen me cry and I do believe one of them was quite shocked at the fact that I was capable of shedding tears. Haha! So yes, am I that detached or do I portray an image of detachment to the point that some people are shocked to see me display emotions?

Sometimes I feel like I don’t matter to anyone. (Nic’s remark would be “the last time i checked, ’sometimes’ mean it’s a pretty rare occurrence.”) Dry deadpan remark aside, I really feel that way. You can say that I am overthinking and maybe I am but really sometimes when I see the way some people act around it. Either I don’t matter much at all to them or they actually don’t like it. You would think people don’t notice but I have my moments of perception and they happen to be always on when people act differently around me. I try not to let it bug me but argh, I am a weak human. So weak.

So I go back to Perth this sunday and I’m 50/50 on it. I am reminded the reasons why I dislike Singapore and want to leave but at the same time I am reminded of the excellent friendships that exist in this hellhole of a nation and then I don’t want to leave! I am indeed caught in between these two choices. I realise that I am neither satisfied in either cities, I find Perth to be quiet and sometimes quite boring especially when you don’t feel like staying in the whole day and at the same time I don’t like Singapore because its simply too damn crowded! Okay! 3 more days to enjoy whatever stuff Singapore has and whatever company that comes my way. I suppose I better make the most of it.

Seriously man, who the fuck makes a show like Gamer? I don’t like watching a movie and suddenly tits and ass suddenly appears on the screen. Once is fine. Twice is slightly irritating. BUT EVERY 10 MINS?! WTF?

What Is My Raison d’être?

Despite the fact that exams still exist (just 2 more papers and I’m over this horrible horrible term) I decided to take a day off to watch Ergo Proxy which is a terribly excellent anime and do nothing. It was an immensely unproductive day which I enjoyed as well as enjoying as little human contact as possible. Its quite comforting to sit on your bed from 3pm to 1am watching Ergo Proxy and occasionally getting up to drink water and eat a quick dinner.

(This is going to be a long and dripping with sarcasm kind of post)

I’ve been in Perth for about 3 months-ish (I can’t really count). For my own sake I will list things I like and things I don’t like. The dislikes will vastly outweigh the likes.

Likes:

1. The weather, the ridiculously cold mornings and evenings to the strangely hot middays. Add in the occasional severe weather warnings and insanely strong winds that might blow Ivan away. I love the WEATHER!!
2. Quiet. The city is damn bloody quiet lah. Which I love, Shelford Road was super quiet as well which is good and likewise its really quiet here. No really its dead quiet, sometimes I think the entire city is dead. Murdered by assassin hamsters in the dead of night.
3. Location. I like the fact that my hall is just right across from UWA and the Reid Library. I also like the fact that my school is a mere 10 minutes away by bus. And another 10 minutes from the Hall to the City itself. Very good location.
4. People. So far the people are nice. Nice enough that you are caught off guard by people saying Hello and Good Morning to you as you walk past them. They say Good Morning to you and you go Err…and you hastily smile and nod your head and walk away….Really fast.

Dislikes:

1. People. While I like them, the ‘them’ refers to a small minority of people who are nice, considerate and kind. The vast majority are just plain assholes. Specially the people around my age. I’m not prudish but really do I need to hear “FUCK YOU” out loud at 11pm Saturday night downstairs of my hall? I know 11pm is early for the ‘cool’ clubbing people but really? Also include people who smoke in the fire escape (more on that later), foodstealers (more on that), manipulative people who use you to improve their disastrous excuse of an essay and dump you when they are done.
2. Noise. Its ironic that I would write that the place is quiet. Actually now its quiet because its the post saturday night partying sleep/”Oh-Dear-God-I-Got-A-Lab-Report-Due-On-Monday” panic. But its not quiet at some nights. I can hear shrieks of laughter, people running around and more shrieks of laughter. Now I know some people feel the need to validate their existence with the amount of noise they make but really people, at 12am? We need our sleep to recharge our energon sources.
3. Food Stealing. Now I don’t have any food stored in the place we call a pantry nevertheless there are people who store the food in the said pantry. Specifically we store it in an advanced food preservation device or as you people would call it a Refrigerator. People have been stealing food from it. Very irritating. Very irritating indeed, not so much for me but irritating for people who have had their ice cream stolen and so on.
4. Irresponsible People. This is a vast area to cover which I will attempt to traverse. First we have people who decide to smoke in our fine fire escapes. These fire escapes were built to facilitate our escape in the case of a fire, the said fire escapes were not built for people who are too lazy to walk down flights of stairs to get to the smoking point. While I can’t be bothered, the smoke tends to go thru the vents in the door. Again this vents were built for the sole purpose of Venting air from outside in and inside out. Now they are venting smoke inside to our fine corridors. As a member of the uncool crowd (since smokers are all cool), please stop? I don’t need lung cancer. Secondly is the person who leaves a mysterious plastic shaver either on the floor, soap cradle or top of the stall dividers. We have had vigorous discussions on what is the sole purpose of these shavers. Is it to shave your head, arms, areas that I cannot mention here? Its quite disgusting.
5. Buses. Need to either come on time or come more often. Nuff said.

Thats all I can think of right now. Nevertheless I think the smoking part bears some repetition. Really. The irresponsible people part as well. I know its considered part of “Hall” life but really? Someone cooked bacon in the pantry and to facilitate the cooking process, he unplugged the fridge and plugged in the toaster oven, one would think that he would plug back the fridge but he didn’t!!!! Omg. We only discovered it two days later. Spectacular effort on his part to screw us over. I now understand the joys of closing your door and creating your own spectacular world within your room where things are quiet, calm and plugged into proper sockets.

I find myself becoming more and more withdrawn from society, the amount of energy spent on dialoging with other people has been steadily decreasing and my ears have been ever de-tuning out the voices of people I hear outside my room (I can barely hear the door knock now) and appreciating the silence, with the occasional siren blaring noise of an ambulance bringing another loser either bleeding or alcohol poisoned from the nightclubs to the hospital nearby. I still need the occasional human interaction that seperates me from the group known as the Hermits but really, I’m not a social butterfly so I appreciate the silence.

The end of the term is upon us and hence I shall dedicate some portion of this place to reflections on the term. This was a term of discovery, a time where I learn of an entirely different system of education that the one that I was brought up. I learn of new forms of people from the very small (pygmy status) to the very large and stupid looking (the bastard child of a chinaman and an orge…I think), from the very quiet (insignificant) to the very loud and irritating (Vietnamese people, now I know why the Vietnam war started) and finally to the very real to the very fake (I’m looking at you bitch). I learn of teachers who can switch from being very interesting to being a douchebag. I really learn alot of things, not all of them educational. I learn that I can write essays quite well (according to my english teacher’s standards), that I can deliver the rich, braised meats that one desires in the form of good, properly written analytical essays. I also learn that I have become short tempered and easily irritated. And also I finally learn you can get away with saying “WHAT THE FUCK” in class out loud when your teacher drops a nuke on you 1 day before your exams start.

I need to rant. There is someone here who played me like a fool. (Wait why is the corridor smelling so delicious??? I must investigate *5 minutes* Oh someone is making bacon) Where was I? Ah yes I’m angry at myself for being played like a fool by someone, I always thought that I would be able to tell the manipulative people from the real people, obviously I have both overestimated myself and underestimated the enemy. Basically this person requested that I assist it with its essays, me being the horribly nice and awesome person that I am cluelessly decided to help out despite the fact I was only 3 weeks into the school system and had no idea about thesis statement tension and so on. Anyway frankly speaking the essay was a disaster, a retarded two year old monkey could have written a better essay than this, however I refused to rewrite the entire essay for the person so I only redid one part of it because that was the most fucked up part of the essay. Anyway long story short, basically now the person doesn’t acknowledge my presence and takes on an haughty air near us. No matter. I will not be trifled with. That person will be dealt with.

There are unsolved mysteries in this place. Mysteries that command us to solve it somehow. For example, the mystery of the person who steals our food, we need to analyze them, what is their motivation? Why did they take the food that they took? Why did they come up to the fourth floor to take the food? Why can’t they read the names on the plastic bags? Are they retarded people? Or perhaps the mystery of the plastic shavers! Is it some kind of paranormal phenomena? Some kind of satanic ritual performed in the sanctity of our stalls? And why are there so many? Where did they come from?? VISITORS FROM ANOTHER DIMENSION!? *The Twilight Zone Music Cue*

Yes I miss home and the people there despite them giving me stress and worry, nevertheless I have the same set of problems here as well, people making me take moments, shake my head, sigh or generally bitch slap them at the back of their heads because they deserve it.

And that is the average length of an essay expect here.

Okay bye.

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